I have no motivation to keep doing any of my ongoing projects. I have this big ongoing project where we are setting up our own free derm clinic night within our student run clinic . It was a huge undertaking, we got a grant from harvard and AAD, donations from companies for skin goodie bags, etc. Its so hard to attend operations meetings knowing I probably wont match to derm >> honestly, super cool initiative>> this is so meaningful OP! know that it will pay off one way or the other < I know it can feel like "what's the point..." but two things to keep in mind: 1) having something to work and focus on can help keep you occupied throughout this process and 2) if this year doesn't work out for you, having more to include in a future app will make it even stronger (whether that's research or projects you've worked on throughout this process)"